New Vlogs!

I'm going to start filming vlogs and put them up on my YouTube account. I'm so excited! It's going to have Catherine, Alice and Kellina starring in them. Hopefully. They are so funny. I'll probably be filming our rehearsal practises and fun times just hanging out at my place. I am also working on a new video for YouTube (timed pictures to the song that started my secret witchy life).
Now onto a more serious topic. If you are wanting to be a witch or take part in wicca because you want to preform spells or to rebel against your parents, then don't bother. You'll most likely make a mistake and regret this path. If you are telling everyone that you are one, probably means it's more for the attention than the actually path. If you aren't telling anyone, means your probably ashamed of it. So be careful. I don't want you having any regrets and I don't want for people t olook poorly on Wicca.
Well that's all I have to say for now.

~~Blessed Be~~

Life is Getting Better

I'm so glad things are looking up! For so long I felt like things were just getting to heavy for me to carry. I'm not saying it's perfect now, but it's a heck of a lot better. I'm getting back into playing the violin when I can. I've learned a few songs and am working on learning more.
As I write this, I'm uploading more video's onto my YouTube account. Click here if you want to go to my channel:YouTube. I'm going to be creating more once it's done too.
I've also started to get more focused on the core of being a witch. I've made a few documents pertaining to making wands, herbs, and magickal stuff in general. If you ever want me to send you a copy of the documents, just ask and I'd be happy too. I got Catherine and my brother their Christmas presents. I haven't finished putting Catherine's together, but I know exactly what I'm going to do for it.
I just got my grad photo's taken and I liked the majority of them, which is quiet a feat since I rarely like my photo.
I'm also in my school musical! WOO!! I'm one of the "singing cowgirls" which sounds like a small part, and it is in the sense it's not a lead. But I'm in five songs and we have more rehearsals than some of the "leads" do. It's a lot of work and I won't have a life for the next few months, but it is soooo worth it. We're like one huge family already.
I'm also hoping to lose 5-10 pounds by Christmas. I'm not fat, and I don't want to be a stick. I just want to feel comfortable in a bikni again.
That's about all that's going on in my life right now. I hope all your lives are going as well as mine is, and if it's not, I suggest talking to someone about it. It doesn't have to be me, but if you do, know that everything you say will be kept confidential.

~~Blessed Be~~

Quote of the Day

There is also a Quote of the day. "Remember, darkness does not always equate to evil, just as light does not always bring good." This quote is by P.C. Cast in her book Betrayed. The quote is pretty self explanatory. Betrayed is the second book in the "house of night" series. It's great for witches. I highly recommend reading it, if you can.

Song of the Day

Today's Song of the day is Sailing Home by Laura Powers. I know, I've used her music before. But her song are genuenly beautiful and uplifting.

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt so alone you want to cry? I have. I am. Yes, as I write this, feel alone. And I don't at the same time. I feel like no one can (or will ever bother to try) and know me. And that feeling sucks. It's the same sort of feeling you get when you think of how simple life used to be when we were kids. That care-free attitude. When tears were scarce. When friends were everywhere. When you had nothing to hide... well... most of the time. When there was no talk of college and university and what you'll do and no pressure to do something. When parents didn't yell at each other... or you. When depression and hate weren't in your vocabulary. When things were simple. I think that's what I miss the most. Is the simplicity of life and the happiness that came with it. When the dark wasn't so scary with a night light. Now for me it's terrifying some nights. When I feel the evil "hosts", as my friends and I call them, are lurking. When I can feel "Santos", the evil spirit who has killed me multiple times, waiting for my fear to come up. When the pure evil beings arrive to feed on my fear, I hide, like a child under blankets, calming myself. They can't hurt you if you don't show fear. That's the one good thing about being older, it's easier to be safe.
I think part of the loneliness is not having my soul mate. I know I have plenty of time but it's weird. I have memories from past lives of him. He's also been killed by Santos multiple times. But I can remember him and the love. the hard part is waiting to meet him. Wondering if he'll be able to remember me. Have you felt like that? Like you've known someone forever and you only just met him/her?
Well, enough of my rambling. I'll post soon witches.

~~Blessed be~~

ps. if you have a blog or a website or anything you'd like me to look at, leave a comment or email me. I'd love to take a look at it. Merry meet.

Seeing Beauty

Recently, things have been looking much brighter. I look in the mirror and i feel more beautiful. Do you realize how uncommon that is? I'm also a whole lot more confident. Also very rare. In my opinion, a witch needs to see the beauty within them self before they can do a spell that is as powerful as the Goddess will let us. It's one thing to tell someone they are beautiful or pretty... it's another thing to say it to the mirror.
One thing that's not looking up, is that my dad found a bunch of my witch books, and is now planning to throw them out. Not looking forward to that. I'm going to try and find a way to save some of them. My fingers are crossed that I'll be able to.
School is starting later this week on Wednesday. I have my schedule and the only thing I have to complain about it, is the lunch I have. But it's in the middle of math and I can see Catharine. It's not a huge issue for me, although, I'd still prefer to have a different one.
I forgot to mention it earlier, but my dad still occasionally forces me to go to church. And one time he did, the speaker was talking about how many people claim to have died and gone to heaven, and came back and wrote a book about it. He mentioned how everyone in the bible who had seen God hadn't died. At first, I didn't think much of it. I wasn't really paying attention. But all of a sudden, it hit me. I had seen "God" only in the form of the Goddess. I, of course, haven't told anyone, except my cousin, Kellina. It's weird thinking that I actually have something in common with the people in the bible. I also think that the only reason the guys in the bible saw a man,  is because they lived in a very sexist time and they could relate to a man better than a woman. Where as, it's the opposite for me. I guess that whole schpeel can count as the "random fact about me" section.

Until next time.
~~Blessed Be~~

Song of the Day

Today's song is Full Circle by Loreena McKennitt. It's one of the songs that gives me (good) chills all up and down my spine. I personally find it very beautiful and inspiring. Let me know your thoughts.

Sorry for the Delay

SO It's been a long time since I wrote anything. Sorry about that. I've had a lot on my plate. We have oficially moved. And I'm not in as bad of an emotional state as I thought I'd be. I'm glad about that. I am seriously excited because I'm going to florida this march break with Catharine and Michael. YAY!!! And my witch cousin and I have decided to travel across the world in 4-5 years. I've become obsessed with japanese EVERYTHING. It pisses my family off sometimes. Oh, and I'll be creating more video's for my YouTube channel, the moment my home computer is ready. I'm also adding a new segment to my blog: "My Spells". I'll be putting up spells I've created or know work. So it might not be updated as frequently, but I'll try to get some put up.
And now, "SOMETHING RANDOM ABOUT ME!!!!" I used to play volleyball. The only reason I quit, was because my coach at the time, was crap. Abdee-abdee-that's all folks!

~~Blessed Be~~

Song of the day

The song I chose for today is Save You by Emilie Autumn. I chose this song because I can identify with what she says when it comes to the people around me. I think of the problems my friends have, both caused by me and not, and I feel as though I need to save and protect everyone around me. And I cant make them leave, for both our sakes.

Back on track

So it's been a few days again. Alyce has boy issues. Between one of our best friends and another guy. I hope she goes for our best friend. Of course, I'm biased. And Michael has started his own blog. He is going to be putting little snippets of a story on. I personally think it's good once you get into the story part. And I am getting back on track with magick. It's hard when my parents are around. My mom, because she is against it because of an ill-informed one time experience. My dad, because he is one of those, witches-are-not-good sort of Christians. I still love him, but it kinda hurts that he doesn't trust me.
Also, my mom and brother are gone for the weekend, so it's just me and my uncle. I think this weekend I'm going to be working on my own stories and witchy stuff. My uncle is actually okay with it all, because my grandma (his mom) was one. And from the sounds of it, she was very good and powerful. I've felt closer to her, but I never really knew her when she was alive. It hurts my heart to think of it.
Next in news, I will be adding another portion onto this blog, where once a week, I will add sections of stories/novels I am writing. I ask that you tell me what you think about them.

Random fact time! Contrary to popular belief, I ACTUALLY HAVE READERS!! ...Well, I didn't know that!

~~Blessed Be~~

May 22, 2011

Sorry I haven't blogged to you, my avid non-existant readers.Not much has happened. I didn't blog thursday mostly due to the fact that I really had nothing to say. And friday, I didn't get home till about 10 o'clock and I spent close to an hour with my dad. My dad had come home earlier that day at about 3. He's gone back, and I nearly cried. I hate watching him leave.
My mom is supposed to be back tomorrow at 6:00. I'm not looking forward to it AT ALL. But I really have no power when it comes to it.

That's all I have to say today.

~~Blessed Be~~

May 18, 2011

For some unknown reason I've been a little out of it. I've been edgy all day and all more tense than I have reason to be.  I guess only time will tell why.
This is something strange. I'm either letting the world know me and my thoughts, or nobody at all. And I don't mind. I think that at some point sombody will find it. And maybe it will happen to help them. I hope it does someday.
Another thing about my parents is that my mom "hates" and therefore avoids my dad as much as she can. And so every other weekend, when my dad comes home, she goes off to Ottawa. This up coming weekend is one of those weekends.

Time for random facts!!! My DEEPEST fear is to die young and alone. Yeah, I know. Deep.

~~Blessed Be~~

May 17, 2011

Today has been a little worse and a little better. Worse in the fact that for the last half of the day, I've had a huge headache and Catharine is not having an easy time. And Alyce isn't in the best shape. Better in the fact that I'm not completely stressed.
Lately I've had more stress than usual as my parents are getting a divorce and I'm having to take care of my younger brother. One of the few good things coming out of this, it that the two of us have become closer.
I have also been working on my speech, meaning I've been trying not to swear. The reason? Because it's not good for me in any way. I find it causes anger and is really a useless sentiment. Plus, add the threefold rule of, what you put out you will receive times three. It goes for everything we do, good and bad. Therefore, I am working on not swearing.

RANDOM FACT TIME!!! I fear being alone in the dark. Not because I'm scared of the dark but because I fear what may be lurking within the shadows.

~~Blessed be~~

Song of the Day

The song of the day is The Trial of Lancelot by Heather Dale.

I love the legend of Arthur and Lancelot and Guinevere. In the movie, The Mists of Avalon, Morgaine is portrayed as a good, but confused follower of the Goddess. This is my favorite portrayal of her. I also believe it to be the most accurate.

Now that this has gotten very far of topic, I will leave you, my viewers (all 2 of you, if that) with that.

May 16, 2011

Life is going on as normal. There are complications when it comes to Catharine's boyfriend. Both Alyce and I have agreed that we need to intervene and show Catharine the truth. Don't get me wrong, Michael is a nice guy, but a little bit... misguided.
Then, I am extremely tired. I can't sleep properly at night unless I take Melatonin pills. So then I come home and sleep... my mother didn't wake me up. So I slept until eight pm. I'm just hoping that I'll be able to fall asleep in an hour or so.
This Friday, I am going to see POTC4. I AM SO EXCITED!!! I'm ging with Catharine, Micheal, and another guy, Deven.
And now for "random facts about meeeeee..." And today it is... drum roll please... I want to travel all over the world. that may not be big news to you, I mean, who doesn't want to when they're young? Well for me, it's more about going back to where I come from.
Well, that's all the news for to day.

~~Blessed Be~~

Song of the Day

The song of the day today is Shine Love by Laura Powers.

I chose this song because it makes me feel all warm and mushy inside. It also reminds me that I am not alone, no matter how much I may feel isolated and/or miserable. There is a new day coming tomorrow.

Quote of the Day

See beyond the moment. Think beyond the day. Hear the word, my voice will not be cast away.  ~~Emilie Autumn.

Quote of the Day

Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need out in life. If we were to go through our life without any obsacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets.  ~~Authour Unknown

May 15, 2011

As this is my first blog, I will tell you who I am and what has happend up till now. I am Katy, from a city of approximately 165,000 people. I have many hopes for my future and that of my friends, Alyce and Catharine (all names accept mine are changed). In grade nine, my best friend Alyce told me she was psychic. I am sure you can imagine my shock. So I went home and looked for information. I stumbled across the "Goddess Chant". I didn't think much of it and showed it to Alyce the next day. She smiled and told me it was wiccan. That was two years ago. Ever since then, we have been witches. And it has only become more complicated and cluttered. Since then many people have joined and left our group. At the same time, we have been dealing with illness, both physical and emotional, and past lives. It seems that in each of our past lives we have not known a true peace. Catharine only recently joined our group. She is as powerful as Alyce and myself, although she hasn't realized it yet. She isn't as big into the magick side of everything, but I'm working on getting her to realize that past lives and magick go hand in hand. Now you know almost everything. As I blog I will tell you more.

Each time I blog, I will try to tell you one more thing about myself, that may or may not be completely irrelevant. So at this time, I will say: My entire name is five names long. How many do you have???


~~Blessed Be~~