New Vlogs!

I'm going to start filming vlogs and put them up on my YouTube account. I'm so excited! It's going to have Catherine, Alice and Kellina starring in them. Hopefully. They are so funny. I'll probably be filming our rehearsal practises and fun times just hanging out at my place. I am also working on a new video for YouTube (timed pictures to the song that started my secret witchy life).
Now onto a more serious topic. If you are wanting to be a witch or take part in wicca because you want to preform spells or to rebel against your parents, then don't bother. You'll most likely make a mistake and regret this path. If you are telling everyone that you are one, probably means it's more for the attention than the actually path. If you aren't telling anyone, means your probably ashamed of it. So be careful. I don't want you having any regrets and I don't want for people t olook poorly on Wicca.
Well that's all I have to say for now.

~~Blessed Be~~

Life is Getting Better

I'm so glad things are looking up! For so long I felt like things were just getting to heavy for me to carry. I'm not saying it's perfect now, but it's a heck of a lot better. I'm getting back into playing the violin when I can. I've learned a few songs and am working on learning more.
As I write this, I'm uploading more video's onto my YouTube account. Click here if you want to go to my channel:YouTube. I'm going to be creating more once it's done too.
I've also started to get more focused on the core of being a witch. I've made a few documents pertaining to making wands, herbs, and magickal stuff in general. If you ever want me to send you a copy of the documents, just ask and I'd be happy too. I got Catherine and my brother their Christmas presents. I haven't finished putting Catherine's together, but I know exactly what I'm going to do for it.
I just got my grad photo's taken and I liked the majority of them, which is quiet a feat since I rarely like my photo.
I'm also in my school musical! WOO!! I'm one of the "singing cowgirls" which sounds like a small part, and it is in the sense it's not a lead. But I'm in five songs and we have more rehearsals than some of the "leads" do. It's a lot of work and I won't have a life for the next few months, but it is soooo worth it. We're like one huge family already.
I'm also hoping to lose 5-10 pounds by Christmas. I'm not fat, and I don't want to be a stick. I just want to feel comfortable in a bikni again.
That's about all that's going on in my life right now. I hope all your lives are going as well as mine is, and if it's not, I suggest talking to someone about it. It doesn't have to be me, but if you do, know that everything you say will be kept confidential.

~~Blessed Be~~

Quote of the Day

There is also a Quote of the day. "Remember, darkness does not always equate to evil, just as light does not always bring good." This quote is by P.C. Cast in her book Betrayed. The quote is pretty self explanatory. Betrayed is the second book in the "house of night" series. It's great for witches. I highly recommend reading it, if you can.

Song of the Day

Today's Song of the day is Sailing Home by Laura Powers. I know, I've used her music before. But her song are genuenly beautiful and uplifting.

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt so alone you want to cry? I have. I am. Yes, as I write this, feel alone. And I don't at the same time. I feel like no one can (or will ever bother to try) and know me. And that feeling sucks. It's the same sort of feeling you get when you think of how simple life used to be when we were kids. That care-free attitude. When tears were scarce. When friends were everywhere. When you had nothing to hide... well... most of the time. When there was no talk of college and university and what you'll do and no pressure to do something. When parents didn't yell at each other... or you. When depression and hate weren't in your vocabulary. When things were simple. I think that's what I miss the most. Is the simplicity of life and the happiness that came with it. When the dark wasn't so scary with a night light. Now for me it's terrifying some nights. When I feel the evil "hosts", as my friends and I call them, are lurking. When I can feel "Santos", the evil spirit who has killed me multiple times, waiting for my fear to come up. When the pure evil beings arrive to feed on my fear, I hide, like a child under blankets, calming myself. They can't hurt you if you don't show fear. That's the one good thing about being older, it's easier to be safe.
I think part of the loneliness is not having my soul mate. I know I have plenty of time but it's weird. I have memories from past lives of him. He's also been killed by Santos multiple times. But I can remember him and the love. the hard part is waiting to meet him. Wondering if he'll be able to remember me. Have you felt like that? Like you've known someone forever and you only just met him/her?
Well, enough of my rambling. I'll post soon witches.

~~Blessed be~~

ps. if you have a blog or a website or anything you'd like me to look at, leave a comment or email me. I'd love to take a look at it. Merry meet.

Seeing Beauty

Recently, things have been looking much brighter. I look in the mirror and i feel more beautiful. Do you realize how uncommon that is? I'm also a whole lot more confident. Also very rare. In my opinion, a witch needs to see the beauty within them self before they can do a spell that is as powerful as the Goddess will let us. It's one thing to tell someone they are beautiful or pretty... it's another thing to say it to the mirror.
One thing that's not looking up, is that my dad found a bunch of my witch books, and is now planning to throw them out. Not looking forward to that. I'm going to try and find a way to save some of them. My fingers are crossed that I'll be able to.
School is starting later this week on Wednesday. I have my schedule and the only thing I have to complain about it, is the lunch I have. But it's in the middle of math and I can see Catharine. It's not a huge issue for me, although, I'd still prefer to have a different one.
I forgot to mention it earlier, but my dad still occasionally forces me to go to church. And one time he did, the speaker was talking about how many people claim to have died and gone to heaven, and came back and wrote a book about it. He mentioned how everyone in the bible who had seen God hadn't died. At first, I didn't think much of it. I wasn't really paying attention. But all of a sudden, it hit me. I had seen "God" only in the form of the Goddess. I, of course, haven't told anyone, except my cousin, Kellina. It's weird thinking that I actually have something in common with the people in the bible. I also think that the only reason the guys in the bible saw a man,  is because they lived in a very sexist time and they could relate to a man better than a woman. Where as, it's the opposite for me. I guess that whole schpeel can count as the "random fact about me" section.

Until next time.
~~Blessed Be~~

Song of the Day

Today's song is Full Circle by Loreena McKennitt. It's one of the songs that gives me (good) chills all up and down my spine. I personally find it very beautiful and inspiring. Let me know your thoughts.